Poetry from the Depths of My Soul
Don’t know if I’ll ever love anyone the way I love you.
But I will love. Because I am love.
I will release you so that I can live a present life and call in that love, whatever form it may take.
Perhaps I’ll live with your memory forever. And that would be enough.
Or perhaps in some place, at some time, your love will come back to me again.
I cherish it either way.
As I transform
The fire is lit to adventure out as this new person
With the innocence of clarity.
That’s what will allow me to reach for the world, attain my desires.
Because I’m moving from my convictions
Rooted in my truths
And holding onto the spark that makes me human, feeling,
Ever aware of the joys that keep me alive.
Shaken out of that false sense of comfort and complacency with my life
Making small steps out of fear, not thinking big
Crawling forever like a baby
Now, I’m here feeling into the beyond, watching myself grow past my edges
And only imagining the potentials of what’s next
Standing on a precipice with clarity, excitement, and wonder…
How I ever thought I could just stay put where I was…
The steadiness is built in increments
In practices
In the seemingly mundane day to days that add up to the arc of my purpose
My lifetime.
My foundation is built upon me
And all that I seek upon this foundation.
Taurus season is teaching me this stillness of form
This stability through which the rote becomes magical
The habit sheer bliss
The routine a song in harmony with nature and life itself.
I shed and I move forward in my evolution
Clearing the karma, transforming, rising again and again
Guided.
Knowing my truth
Feeling into the vision of all that I see in my heart
Expressing my truth with love and fearlessness
Creating and exploring this world
One painting at a time.
How can I truly BE love
Truly be present
Truly live
If I don’t release into now?
I am merely me
With no control
With all the love
And I can only truly receive everything around me.
I cannot meddle
I cannot force
And I cannot truly receive, nor be open to receive if I do not allow.
Allow shifts
Allow people
Allow my heart to feel
Allow chances
Allow the water to flow and recognize its power
It’s nature, its beauty.
Open up.
You’re safe enough.
Because YOU are safe.
And they will feel it and bask in your glow.
Give you room to expand in love. Feel the moment.
You’re safe.
You can love and give and feel.
He will always respond.
And if he doesn’t, if he forgets... it’s because you forgot.
But it’s always there.
The love.
Just have to source it deeper next time.
Burning up a clearing of my body and my love.
The same way the Phoenix sheds to regrow anew.
Purified through my light I stand tall
A figure on a precipice between dark and light
Peak and valley
Forgotten and remembered.
I remember now what my nature is
I remember my body, my love
I remember how to open to this light without burning out
Because I burn within and I trust it
All that I’m creating depends upon this light.
This light standing with my feline roar
The core of my purpose, my energy.
My energy a flame to behold, one that magnifies all that it touches.
I trust my light. I come to know my light, for it is the light of my heart.
I hear myself
I see myself
I know myself
Because I feel myself
My fire
My flame
My light
My love
Love in its purified form
Renewed and open…
I am new
I am whole
I am fire
I am love
I am spirit
I am a blaze of my own light
An expression of the divine
And so it is my duty to share that divinity
And ripple the flames outward for everyone to capture.
We are all the flame.
Leaving the mind behind.
I sit by the fire tonight
Not because I’m supposed to
Not because it’s scheduled.
The flames make me dance
I see myself in their reflections
I’m drawn to my own inner light
Knowing
Feeling
Connecting
Allowing.
Allowing myself to breathe life into my soul
Allowing the past to be the past
Allowing all stories to evaporate into the smoke I see before me.
Was I ever truly alive?